Dear Diary no. 1

Sometimes, I do look like someone who don't know how to talk properly. es-eych-ahy-tee!
: (

Wait And See

Maybe there's just something wrong with my imagination but it seemed like all the thing I'm working on was not very satisfying. boooooooooooo!

Colder

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You got right time and right tools. You've planned your goal. You planned everything that you listed down. But it does not work like it should be. Or somehow there are barriers came in the way you can't afford to tell. mmmmm~

--- (It has always happened to me, yes brother)

There are some people that can't stand with their failed plan. It's normal people do. Some people think they don't deserve that. Nothing wrong with it. But most of them didn't realize that will make them feel weaker. I've seen a lot in both my shoes; as a teacher and a normal people. They cried, shouting, saying bad words plus plus. It is such a wasting time. it is way too dumb. Sorry!

Yes, I've been through it and I felt the way it should feel. But somehow I got something that make me re-think again why should I be stronger. To tell the truth, I'm one of the losers indeed. Failed millions planning and failed again. Here, I think "HOPE" plays a main reason why it hurts much. Felt and woke up with a lot of wound and cuts. But still, I will take anything that I have to face just for my very own life's sake. It is not others life, bonehead!

I usually analyzed every mistake I've made. And it is felt like listen to the music that you don't like when you find out the best solution is BEING SELFISH. Yes, in other sweet word it has been called leadership. Not that leadership that you learned in Business Management in your college, baby. It is kind of running something out without listen to others. But I did it with a great taste and studies (not a proper/official one of course). And another thing is; please don't assume it would happen like in the "happily ever after" kind of movie. It'll not. Better put a low expectation on its succeed. It will help you. Trust me.

mmm I don't like this entry.

I had better shut up now (or stop writing). I usually talk / writing craps cynically when pissed off. And it is really rings a bell...

R A Y A 08

Greetings,

Raya has came again with it's Berkah for all the musimin and muslimat.

Not as few years back, this year's Raya is different. ehe. Syawal 2008 had marked a sign in my own life; for the first time in my whole life celebrating it with my special one; Nona of course : )

And this is like "ooohhh i'm getting married!" haha.


Plus got some clip on 3rd Raya 2008.







Happy Eid ul Fitr everyone!

Delirium

Just went back from KL for picking up Chorie's floor tom and cybal 14'' crash. Bought Nona a Poptone Casio watch (i bet she really like that much...make your girlfriend happy-lah! what else? presents always made them all excited and happy all the time he he), a pair of Crocs shoes for Ayah and yellow-colored Bermuda top for myself (RM29.90 after 70% less, in fact; my tees/shirt/top would never be more than rm40 you know? ).

I just can't believe I missed the RM59 xylaphone at Cash and Converter Shop (worth for RM600++ if you find it in 2nd hand shop around else dude!) shizz : ( . Farhan just get nervous when he found that xylaphone was no longer there. He rang me up with his upset voice tone while I'm at OU; told me that I will never get the cheapest xylaphone like that for my entire life. shizzzzzzzzzzzzzzz! oh, nevermind...in another 10 days I'll get my Memory Man With Hazarai directly from The States, Guided By Voices and Superchunks CD from Ipoh. haha. Currently I really into Ebay. Never did that before, I tell you. Hope that will be enough for forgetting the xylaphone. (errr, can ah? it is so cheap maaa! tak dapat cari mana kedai lagi dalam dunia!!!)

Since it is school break, so i think i can get much time for randomize-internet-surfing with no guilty feeling haha. And throw a new entry here of course!

Here I am, doing the random-internet-surfing thingy. Searching pictures in pc for updating my GENI profile that Abang Joy asked for a while back through sms. mmm ...

I can't help myself from being upset and sad all at once when I see this --->



from left Anas of Laila's Lounge, Hayyan, Daus (my lil bro), Abong, Fatin, Miji (me and Daus lil bro). Ok, this is not a full line up of Rhaman, just a capture of true and honest friendshipness

It reminds me a lot of having fun with true friends in every trip we went. Yes, this is when we are doing some show at JB. It's been 3 or 4 months since I left The Rhaman. Frankly, it's quite hard for me to did that. But for God's sake, I did for their own good. Last week they performing for Mocca's Malaysia Tour. One of the best Indo band around in my opinion. I felt happy on that for sure : ) maju terus wei!

Birthday@Anjung Bonda

Within forthnight, I've been through new experiences, I would say. I think I shoulda name them as 'Minggu Yang Menjana Pengalaman-Pengalaman Pertama' (A Collective of my-very-first-time-Week) haha. First one is celebrating my birthday at an orchad / garden and the second one is; ACTING! Yup, I, myself don't believe it - I can do that all the 'berlakon' thingy muhahaha.

Me as Sri Amerta in realism drama entitled "Menyerahnya Seorang Perempuan". Quite embarassing when i lost everywords that i've planned to talk. shit!

Perspectives

Somewhere inside my brain is leaking. It's bursting with a lot of colors. I can see all the colors now clearly. They mix up and blended together to a new form of I-dont-know- what-it-is thing. Now just listen the sound of brain's leaking. Shhhhhh...!

GROAHHHH!

How can i tell? Now I'm in a mouth of a very enormous creature. I'm not frightened, weird. Smells good in here. Fresh!!! I would say. Smells like woods. Ah, I captured one for you here. Try look at this:



ahhh, look now the monster opened his mouth widely. Can you see the monster's lower teeth?